It's been a good, long while since my last post and with good reason. Life has been, well, unsure these days. I go from moments of pure happiness to self-doubt and uncertainty. I think a lot of that comes with striving and pushing towards a goal while you're pruning and shaping it into what it's meant to be. It's always a process. Sometimes a painful process. There are days when I'd like to throw my camera out the window. Then, there are days when I can't imagine ever living without it. It teaches me a great deal, when I am able to listen. I do know that I've been thinking a lot about my craft, my vision, where I've been, and where I'd like to go. This summer already has been a time of great growth for me and in solidifying more focus in my life. I will be taking portrait sessions for the rest of the summer only as I choose. I need some time to regroup and to hone my skills and passion for what I truly do love. Sometimes you have to let things go in order to be truly free. So I've said "NO" to maybe 6 weddings this year, yay for me!!! Weddings have never truly been my area. And I'm heading in a different direction. Still with photography, still working with children and families...just, well, different. If you've already contacted me about a session this summer, I will honor those dates and commitments. Moving forward, I need to be more true to myself. And I'm learning to do that by saying no to what doesn't fit with my vision. That's right, my vision.
Above is an image that has helped me greatly along my photographic journey and in finding my own voice, and I thought it was appropriate to post it here. It's not technically perfect, the colors and clothes are crazy, not everyone's looking at the camera, or properly in focus, etc., etc. The list could go on and on. But I love it. It was more about the moment than anything technical. I have others where they're in focus and looking directly at me but they're not the same. Not as "real" to me. I absolutely love each of the children here, my posse of niece and nephews, and their expressions, their positions, everything about the photo I unabashedly love. It holds for me a moment in time that I will never forget: one of the kids had just fallen down a hill, one fell backwards in the mud soon afterwards, and my crazy sister was trying desperately next to me to get them to look at me and smile, all at the same time. No easy feat. She suddenly blurted out, "Auntie Kiki has poop on her head!!!!" This is the result. I love it. It's imperfectly perfect. It means everything to me. I'm so thankful to have it. It has helped me to re-evaluate how I photograph children and has been a great blessing in my life. LIfe is full of moments like this. Maybe 1,000 of them have happened to you already today. I want to capture these, for people like myself who will never forget them. They are life-changing, if we let them be. I want to let them be. I will be offering a few themed sessions this summer, since those are more aligned with my vision and help to capture the true essence of childhood. It's where I want to be and where I want to grow. Thanks so much for each of your continued support and love! It means the world to me. Have a toasty Tuesday, my friends!